+_+Daisuke Dee Shichiro+_+

mGA Pasaway na STUDyante!

2010-03-19T15:13:00.000+08:00

mGA Pasaway na STUDyante!

the little Nyonya

2009-10-28T19:27:00.003+08:00

Cast

Huang family

Elders

Huang Yuan (黄元, also known as Tow Kay, meaning "Head of Household", portrayed by Yan Bing Liang (严炳量))- Head of the Huang family. He is also forced to follow the family's manipulations (for example, he is persuaded into disregarding Juxiang as part of their family).

Guihua (桂花, also known as Tua Ji or "Big Sister", portrayed by Lin Meijiao (林梅娇))- The matriarch of the Huang family. She is very protective of her daughters, and hates Tian Lan's side of the family with a passion, treating them as mere inferiors. She later confesses her sins and suffers a stroke during her attempt to burn Yueniang, whom she blames for all the misfortunes happening in the family.

Tian Lan (天兰, portrayed by Xiang Yun (向云)) - Mother of Juxiang. She was a maid of the Huang family. Having been raped by Huang Yuan, she was taken in as second mistress of the house. However, her status in the family is essentially that of a maid. She is accidentally thrown off the second floor of the Huang residence by Jincheng, after Tian Lan stumbles upon his affair with Xiujuan. Tian Lan's injuries from this fall prove fatal.

Tua Kor (大姑, portrayed by Guan Xuemei (管雪梅))- Huang Yuan's elder sister and mother of Xiulian, Xiufeng and Xiujuan. Being a very demeaning elder in the Huang family, she often abuses Ah Tao.

First generation

Huang Jincheng (黄金成, portrayed by Darren Lim (林明伦)) - Son of Huang Yuan and Guihua. He has a crush on Xiu Juan but is arranged to marry her sister, Xiu Feng instead. He died of a massive heart attack upon learning that Tianbao had been sentenced to death for murdering Chen Sheng, as well as Charlie and Robert Zhang.

Huang Meiyu (黄美玉, portrayed by Apple Hong (洪乙心)) - Eldest daughter of the Huang family, and sister of Jincheng. Wife of Chen Sheng. However, Chen Sheng does not regard her as his wife. As a result, she shows a great sense of hatred towards Juxiang and Yueniang.

Xiufeng (秀凤, portrayed by Pan Lingling (潘玲玲)) - daughter in law of Guihua. Married to Jincheng.Xiufeng listens to her mother-in-law’s every word. She will do whatever she can to marry her two daughters off to wealthy families, even if it’s at Yueniang’s expense. She suffers a terrible shock when she finds out that her husband is having a clandestine affair with her sister Xiujuan. She gradually turned good (all to prevent Guihua/Tua Ji for getting into the first woman of the Huangs) throughout the later episodes.

Xiujuan (秀娟, portrayed by Cynthia Koh (许美珍)) - Younger sister of Xiufeng. She had an affair with Jincheng. When Huang Tianbao was arrested for the murder of Chen Sheng, she plotted a scheme to defraud the Huangs of their money, under the pretext of bribing a high-ranking police officer. The plot succeeded, with the Huangs giving her the proceeds from their sale and mortgage of virtually all of the Huang's assets. She ran away to Hong Kong after she received the money. However, she kept the money in a bank during her years on Hong Kong, where it earned a tidy sum of interest. She returned the money to the Huangs after many years.

Huang Juxiang (黄菊香, portrayed by Jeanette Aw (欧萱))- Although born into a wealthy Peranakan family, she is treated with scorn and insult because of her mother's humble origins. She became a deaf-mute from the age of nine due to an illness; as a result, she cannot stand up for herself in many cases. She died of internal injuries soon after her husband, Yamamoto Yousuke, was killed by Japanese soldiers.

Second generation

Huang Tianbao (黄天宝, infrequently called Alexandre Huang, portrayed by Andie Chen (陈邦鋆)) - The only son of Huang Jincheng and Xiufeng. He sent someone to kill Chen Sheng with hopes that Robert would reinstate him as deputy GM, but was laughed at instead. He was sentenced to death for instigating the murder of Chen Sheng as well for the murder of Charlie and Robert Zhang.

Huang Zhenzhu (黄珍珠, portrayed by Eelyn Kok (郭蕙雯)) - first daughter of Xiufeng and Jincheng. A wilful girl who fancies Chen Xi. Zhenzhu is however lazy, straightforward and naive. She witnessed Yuzhu being raped by Robert and tried to save her, but was caught in mind by Xiujuan's advice and did nothing. In Episode 13, it is revealed that although she almost tortured Yueniang, but she does not want to see her die. She managed to marry Chen Xi but in the end, she ran away with another man as she didn't want to stay with Chen Xi, who ends up hating and disliking her. She is the only half-antagonist-half-protagonist of this show.

Huang Yuzhu (黄玉珠, portrayed by Joanne Peh (白薇秀)) - Second daughter of Xiufeng and Jincheng. A demure girl who fancies Chen Xi, she often helps Yueniang and Ah Tao out of situations where they would otherwise get into trouble with the family elders. However, having been raped by Robert Zhang, she is forced to marry him, and thereafter suffers an ill fate under him. Tortured into insanity, she is committed to a mental institution for the rest of her life after giving birth to Zuye, the father of Angela. It is not known what happened to her after that.

Yamamoto Tsukamusume (Yamamoto Yueniang) (山本月娘, portrayed by Jeanette Aw (欧萱), elder version portrayed by Xiang Yun (向云))- The daughter of Juxiang. She looks exactly like her mother. Her parents' deaths made her a rather strong-willed and feisty woman, yet she is still forgiving towards Guihua and her other relatives despite their mistreatment of her and her family. Ah Tao states at the present time that she has been diagnosed with cancer of the small intestine but did not want an operation; however, she goes for one when the disease nears its final stages. It is at this point that she tells Angela that she isn't her biological grandmother.

Third generation

Zuye (祖业, child portrayed by Lim Yongxun (林泳勳), elder portrayed by Zzen Zhang (章缜翔))- Son of Yuzhu. Due to Yuzhu's mental condition, he was adopted and raised by Yueniang. He became a lawyer and had two sons and a daughter, the latter being none other than Angela.

Fourth generation

Angela (安淇, portrayed by Felicia Chin (陈靓萱)) - A university student in Canada. Originally considered to be the biological granddaughter of Yueniang, it was revealed at the end that she is the biological granddaughter of Robert Zhang and Yuzhu, as her father (Zuye) was adopted by Yueniang due to Yuzhu's mental illness. Before the series, in the present-day storyline, she had an unlucky run in romance, and decided to briefly return to Malacca, where she learnt about her adoptive grandmother's bitter past.

Chen family

Elders

Madame Chen (陈老太, portrayed by Li Yinzhu (李茵珠)) - Chen Xi's great-grandmother (Chor Chor), Chen Sheng's grandmother (Ma Ma). Likes to eat rempah udang very much. She places great emphasis on women's ability to cook Peranakan dishes and sew beaded shoes. She was one of the few people who trusted Yueniang.

First generation

Chen Gong (陈功, portrayed by Chen Xiang (陈翔)) - The eldest grandson of Madame Chen, frequently comes into conflict with the Zhang family.

Chen Sheng (陈盛, portrayed by Pierre Png (方展发)) - Married to Meiyu, but harbours love for Juxiang. After losing Juxiang, he drowns his sorrows by spending his free time drinking as well as singing and dancing pantun with young women. Sheng was murdered on the orders of Huang Tianbao, who believed that it was what Robert Zhang wanted.

Second generation

Chen Xi (陈锡, portrayed by Qi Yuwu (戚玉武))- So named because on the day of his birth, his family signed a lucrative Tin contract, he is the only child in his family. Having been educated in the UK, he has always been more liberal than his conservative family. Although he wanted to marry Yueniang, his family forced him to marry Huang Zhenzhu instead. After he thought Yueniang had died in the fire where Robert Zhang had set up, he later married to Libby and had six children. His career was very successful and contributed a lot to charity.

Zhang family

Charlie Zhang (查里张, portrayed by Desmond Sim (沈金兴))- A baba who returned from the United Kingdom, he is generally disapproving of the Peranakan culture, earning him scorn from the older generation of high Peranakan society. He has affairs with many women, and makes use of his wealth and status to collaborate with the Japanese. It is heavily implied that he had something to do with the deaths of Yousuke and Juxiang. He was killed during a scuffle between Robert Zhang and Huang Tianbao, when a pistol was accidentally fired, hitting Charlie in the head.

Robert Zhang (罗伯张, portrayed by Zzen Zhang (章缜翔)) - Son of Charlie Zhang. A cunning one like his father, he raped Yuzhu and tortured her endlessly after marrying her, even to the extent of drugging her and giving her to other men in exchange of business benefits. He was killed by Huang Tianbao, despite Robert's promise to return the money and distributorship to the Huangs.

Other Character

Ah Tao (阿桃, portrayed by Ng Hui (黄慧), elder version portrayed by Zhu Xiufeng (朱秀凤))- An amah for the Huang family. Originally a personal servant of Huang Yuan's elder sister, Tua Koh (who abused her heavily), she was bought by Tian Lan, and became her kitchen helper. She is loyal to Juxiang and Yueniang, and served Yueniang all the way to the present day. Her right leg was broken by Guihua sometime at the beginning of the show.

Yamamoto Yousuke^[2] (山本洋介, portrayed by Dai Yangtian (戴阳天)- An ethnic Japanese, he was very interested in Peranakan culture. In order to protect Juxiang from the philandering Charlie Zhang, he married her. Yousuke was murdered by invading Japanese when Singapore fell to Japanese forces. It is implied that Charlie Zhang had a role in his murder.

Liu Yidao (刘一刀, portrayed by San Yow (姚玟隆) - A butcher who had an arranged marriage with Yueniang, but later accepted her as his sworn sister. He and his brotherhood later assisted Yueniang with her business. At the advice of Yueniang, Yidao gave up his bullying and gangster-like ways, in favour of a more civilized lifestyle.

Libby (丽贝儿, portrayed by Pamelyn Chee (齐騛) - A woman who is more liberal than social norms at the time, she eventually married Chen Xi, and had six children with him.

Jonathan Li Xiuwen (李修文, portrayed by Nat Ho (鹤天赐) - A native of Hong Kong who grew up in Canada. He fell in love with his university schoolmate Angela, and followed her from Canada to Malacca. Because of Yueniang's dramatic past, he decides to write a story about her life and will not leave Malacca until it is finished.

Da Sha (大傻, lit. "The Big Silly [person]", portrayed by Li Yuejie (李岳杰)) - A simple-minded lunatic who saved Yueniang's life when she was in a coma after being rescued from a well. Pioneer of bird's nest dish and helped her with her business.

Paul (portrayed by Bobby Tonelli)- A British lawyer who was originally hired by Robert Zhang, but eventually helped the Chens in a lawsuit. He later married Yueniang. The couple have no children of their own, as Yueniang had 2 miscarriages.

Greenday Music

2009-09-03T09:52:00.001+08:00

Everyday

2009-08-13T11:11:00.005+08:00

Once in a lifetime
Means there's no second chance.
So I believe that you and me
Should grab it while we can.
Make it last forever
And never give it back.
It's our turn
And I'm loving where we're at.
Because this moment's really all we have.
Everyday, of our lives
Wanna find you there
Wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
While we're young

And keep the faith
Everyday
From right now
Gonna use our voices
And scream out loud
They say
That you should follow
And chase down what you dream
But if you get lost
And lose yourself
What does it really mean?
No matter where we're goin'
It starts from where we are
There's more to life
When we listen
To our hearts.

And because of you
I've got the strength to start.
Everyday
Of our lives
Wanna find you there
Wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
While we're young
And keep the faith,
From right now
Gonna use our voices
And scream out loud
Take my hand
Together we, will celebrate
Oh, everyday!
Takin' it back
Doin' it here
Together
It's better like that
And stronger now than ever
Not gonna lose
'Cause we get to choose
Just how it's gonna be
Everyday
Of our lives
Wanna find you there
Wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
While we're young
And keep the faith
Keep the faith
Everyday
Of our lives
Wanna find you there
Wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
While we're young

And keep the faith.

From right now
Gonna use our voices
And scream out loud

Together we
Will celebrate
Everyday and
Live every day

LEtter to Friend

2009-05-20T16:56:00.002+08:00

Dear Dude,

good Day! lately, i have felt that you were staying away from me..
I don't know if im just too sensitive about how you act when were together,
but that's how i feel, i feel consciousness on the way you act. Its like,
there's something in your mind that you want to ask at me...
Is there any problem?

you know what i have learned many things on you...
You have given me the answers at many questions i wanted to know.
You have made me feel that there's nothing to worry about those things
that makes me scared to happen.
You have let me know that i can be love by someone else even they don't
have any kinship with me. Just like you, you came into my life and you have
made me feel that im your friend and i can trust you on anything .

Because of you Ive learned to be brave, I have learned to be open to anyone
and most of all i have learned to TRUST a person and learned to give LOVE & CARE to everyone.
Dont you feel your special to me?
Thats why i can tell anything at you without any hesitations and confusions
because you were my BEST FRIEND and i have learned to love you like my real
BIG BROTHER!

YOUR BEST FRIEND,
Alnasef

What a Problem!

2009-05-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

Problems are anywhere! I can’t avoid it, wherever I’ll go its there. It doesn’t stop bothering my mind. I had a problem at school at home and at work. I really feel stressed.

At school, I was absent last meeting for just one reason. It’s because I did not awake earlier. Maybe because I was really tired that day. I was really sorry for that happening. However even without attending the class, I still got some learning experiences that I should be thankful for.

At home I had a problem with my big brother; he doesn’t stop from arguing with our mom. Although I know sometimes I hate my dad because of something, I still want him to know that I really care about what’s going on at home and I miss his jokes and hugs. I am a mama’s boy I admit ever since I was a kid, ill run through my mom when I and my father would disagree. So I am really protective when it comes with my mom.

At work, even though it does seem that I was enjoying. I was really bothered of some team members that don’t like me. I don’t want to be hated by anyone else. That really makes me feel unusual.

Remember buddies: For you to be able to be love by others you must learn how to love what you usually hates the most!

There You'll Be

2009-05-09T14:51:00.001+08:00

When I think back on these times,
And the dreams we left behind,
I'll be glad cause I was blessed to get,
To have you in my life,

When I look back on these days,
I look and see your face,
You were right there for me.

Bridge:

In my dreams I've always seen you soar above the sky,
In my heart there'll always be a place for you,
For all my life,

Chorus:

I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be,
and everywhere I am there you'll be,

Well you showed me how it feels,
To feel the sky within my reach,
And I always will remember all,
The strength you gave to me,
Your love made me make it through,
Ohh I owe so much to you,
You were right there for me.

Bridge:

In my dreams I've always seen you soar above the sky,
In my heart there'll always be a place for you,
For all my life,

Chorus:

I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be,

Cause I always saw you in my life, my strength,
And I wanna thank you now for all the ways,
You were right there for me, you were right there for me
Always!!

Bridge:
In my dreams I've always seen you soar above the sky,
In my heart there'll always be a place for you,
For all my life,

Chorus:

I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be,
And everywhere I am there you'll be,
There You'll Be

Service Crew

2009-04-29T15:23:00.005+08:00

Every one of us wanted for a job. Looking or searching for it until we’ll find a better one. But for most student like me who didn’t yet graduate college or any degree, we are acceptable for a Service crew position on any restaurants and fast food chains here at the Philippines.

To be a service crew is really a tough job for me. You are obliged to always be cheerful and vibrant even your day doesn’t seem to be good and you need to attend those late night meetings with your superiors.

Self discipline and dedication to your job are really needed to make the company progressive and for you to last long in this profession, I may call. You should enjoy and make friends, be bold and you should be a good leader and a follower too.

While on duty, you are responsible for whatever those customers ask you to serve them. To be able for you to get along, you should act obediently and hospitably to please them. Even customers seems to be bad and treat you like you’re just someone who don’t belong to their economic status, still you cant do nothing but serve them at your best.

Experiencing a job like this can really mold you into a better person like no other student or man could have. You can really thank god for letting you experience this kind of opportunity knock your door.

Believe me, this is really a treasure that no one could ever regret for having this job.

SPideyQuotes

2009-04-18T03:09:00.005+08:00

Mary Jane and Spider Man
Mary Jane: Peter. I can't survive without you.
Peter Parker: You shouldn't be here.
Mary Jane: I know you think we can't be together, but can't you respect me enough to let me make my own decision? I know there'll be risks but I want to face them with you. It's wrong that we should be only half alive... half of ourselves. I love you. So here I am… standing in your doorway. I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?
Mary Jane: Well, say something…
Peter Parker: Thank you, Mary Jane.

Mary Jane and Spider Man
Mary Jane: Peter I'm getting married.
Spider Man: I've always imagined you getting you married on a hill top.
Mary Jane: Who's the groom?
Spider Man: You haven't decided yet.

Mary Jane and Spider Man
Spider Man: You don't understand! I'm not an empty seat anymore. I'm different!

Mary Jane and Spider Man
Mary Jane: (on the giant spider web) I think I always knew all this time who you really were.
Peter Parker: Then you know why we can't be together. Spider Man will always have enemies. I can't let you take that risk. I will always be Spider Man. You and I can never be...

“The Final Week”

2009-03-27T10:47:00.004+08:00

It was a tough week for me. The projects and assignment in school were always popping in every class I attend. I have to manage my time to be able to accomplish all of it. It’s because the semester is closely coming to its end. I had more things to do and lessons to review. I just hope that I can pass all the subjects in this semester.
Even I was at my job I still work with my assignments to avoid late submission or worst, rejection of it. My subject office productivity tool 1 really helps a lot on me in improving the way I make documents or presentations. My speed of typing words per minute improves obviously. So, I don’t need to spend long time at internet cafes to accomplish my assignments or projects.
This might be the last WLE I’ll wrote for this semester, I would like to thank everything I have learned to my teacher Sir Julhan for having patience on us and for giving us chances in everything that were delayed on submission. I would like him to know that he is doing a great job. Teachers are heroes that everyone else should treasure because they were the source of everything we learned at school. I mean, without them every school is worthless.

Hope I was Dreaming(_- -)!

2009-03-21T09:15:00.000+08:00

It was just the start of the month of February, when my school ID got lost during my rest day at work. When I’ve known that it was lost in my possession, I immediately went to the hall of justice to file for an affidavit of lost of school ID.

After one week, we had an emergency meeting at Greenwich about those things that we should do to improve our service and meet our targets. That day I was assigned to be the closer of our counter station. I need to be on duty at exactly 1300 to 2300. Our emergency meeting will start at 2330 so I need to be hustle on doing my job. After that, I really felt weary. The meeting adjourned at exactly 0500 and I have my class at 0800. I didn’t even have the chance to relax at that time.

After that while on our way home I remember that that day was also the last submission of our assignment via e-mail. So I need to rent a pc and use the internet to send it. Even I was really trying hard to keep myself awake at that time I can’t help on closing my eyes because I really feel tired and sleepy. Just like now! He…

The next day I knew, when I was going back to school, my wallet was also missing. Damn it! I can’t even remember where I placed it. All I know that time when I was gong home was I just want to sleep and help myself. When I lost it, I also lost my ATM card, TIN card, Library card etc. “I wish I am just dreaming!” that was the thought in my head. This is really terrible for me. It’s like losing my treasures one by one. Hu hu...

These were not the end of this nightmare. Yesterday my time card was lose and I had a shortage of almost 100 pesos on my sales last night and I need to pay for it. Some times I asked, were these things fated to happen to me? Oh! How I wish someone will awake me from this horrible nightmare.

This reminds me of Spiderman. He said that “Sometimes, to do what’s right, we need to be steady and give up the things we really want the most even our DREAMS.”

The Search for Mr. & Miss STI 2009

2009-03-18T14:01:00.000+08:00

The Search for Mr. & Miss STI 2009 was over, that was so exciting and quite some awful. The contestants really don’t know how to answer that simple question about the school’s vision and mission. It was embarrassing scenery of our school as some of my friends from other school

said. Of course I was defending my school from their judgments. As far as I know they were just nervous that’s why they were not able to answer the question intelligently. I knew those guys and they were cool and friendly. Whatever they’d say, I don’t care! Maybe they were just trying to fool me or pull down our awesome school’s reputation.

I was one of the guys that were assigned at the dressing room to help my classmate Jay-Ar on his costumes and make ups during the pageant night. Almost all of the contestants have their own makeup artist and costumes properly organized and complete. Despite the fact that they were fated to compete with each other I can feel the brotherhood among them. It’s like they were just enjoying the atmosphere with each other and there was no competition at all.

After the pageant night, I went home with the thought of “I must of have friends like those guys!” Those that have concerns for their friends, those that were naturally open minded and those that were ready to sympathize you on your problems no matter what it was.

Career Factor

2009-03-17T09:41:00.001+08:00

This was the time when i was attending the career factor week at STI College. I never thought that i could be in this school. I remember way back high school, i have wished that I'll be an STIer someday. I have waited almost three years when i finally achieved what i have dreamed before. Well, I can say that I was fated to be here.
That days were really fun and educational. We were doing more activities that really test our abilities regarding on what courses will be our choice.

Wild side

2009-03-17T07:38:00.000+08:00

Its party time! Almost all of the people I’ve encountered acts the way this phrase express. No doubt, because Christmas parties are all over again! From my little sisters to my friends, my co-workers and even to my superiors. They all seem to be excited about what’s going to happen on this event. I heard some of my schoolmates talking about what they going to wear and to whom will they want to dance with at the disco. Yes! DISCO. It was always the highlighted part of every program I’ve attended. Having the themes funky and fun of Greenwich and Christmas rocks at STI both were very interesting and really fun.

At first, I was also anxious to attend those parties. I have worried about what would I got to do to belong. Then I decided to gather some advice from my big brother. When I arrived at the party of Greenwich, it was about to start. Amidst of the program, I performed a dance number with my group. Although it was not graceful and good as the other group’s performance, the most important to us was the enjoyment and happiness we shared with each guest at that moment. Posing with our beautiful smile and gorgeous bodies at the camera makes us feel like a superstar as one of my friends told me.

At the disco some of them really danced at their boldness while others danced with consciousness. Some were just sitting along the tables. If I only know, they were just waiting for someone to invite them. As everyone was getting hotter and sexy, there was a lady that really caught my attention. I don’t know why, but my eyes can’t help watching her dancing gracefully. I can see her beautiful eyes and lips’ shimmering as some strikes of light touches her rosy cheeks. Actually, I’ve known this girl ever since but that night was different from other days that I used to see her.

I joined the group and dance with them. As we were laughing at silly dance steps, giggling at crazy things while playing with the music. Although I was dancing with them I still have the shame and control despite of the darkness that caused others to be daring and wild.

At that moment of truth I’ve realized that the book I’ve read was right. It says; the behavior of a fully human being is always unpredictable. Simply because it is free...

MAGICAL LEARNINGS

2009-01-26T16:09:00.000+08:00

It was then the first ICT week I’d experience. Seriously, I thought it was just as simple as those programs of our school that I didn’t wanted to be involve. I did attend the opening of the week’s event. The theme really sounds very interesting and so unusual to hear. It reads: GREEN IT. Well, I even had a little doubt in my head. I wanted to try and ask the speaker why is that they come up with that theme. When I was to raise my hand to ask that question, my friends arrived and that question was wasted.

I attended the adobe after effect seminar since that day was my rest day at my work. I had a great time there even though I was the only Business Administration student. I worked alone. No one even care to know and talk to me at those four corners of that room. Feels like it was just me and the computer I used to touch. However, even though that’s how they were I just ignore them and focused on the things that were discussed to us.

It was really spectacular! I’d like to know those things since I was a kid. I’d love to have magical powers just like Mr. Harry Potter. Though his story wasn’t realistic at least I have the knowledge of how they come up with those special effects to make those scenes in the movie realistic. Brilliant! That does how ill describe this week’s event. It was like tours to what they call “Virtual Reality”. Hey! Don’t take it as an exaggeration though, hmmp. Okay, take it as how you think. “Basta ako”, I’ve learned a lot of new things which you should know too.

Healthy Heart

2009-01-05T12:00:00.004+08:00

Even the world is facing a great economic crisis today; many of the Filipinos spent their Christmas and New Year celebrations extravagantly. It’s like they are not affected by this phenomenon. They’re just been enjoying the holidays indefinitely.

Being with my family at those times made me really feel at ease. I have nothing to worry about everything that we prefer to have. My family enjoyed the New Years Eve and I’m much pretty sure of that.

The year 2008 was really different and memorable to me.

This was the time when I have known my real personality. My strengths and my weaknesses and how I like to be treated the way I wanted. This was the time when I found my future. What I want to be and what will I got to do. This was the year when I started to understand life, how to cope with other people and how it feels to be hated by others. I’ve experienced struggles, sacrifices and disappointments but I still thank god for letting me feel those hearth aching sceneries of life. Through that I can say that “living is not always how you wished things to happen it might be harder than what you hoped, for you to survive you must have the courage and tolerance to understand that life is an exodus that you’ve chose through your own fate.

I believe that I am designed to love the people around me, but if loving me back is not worthy and doesn’t comes from their hearts I better stay away and keep myself at the safer ground.

This year, I’ll try to keep the real me and I’ll try to find a friend that would not hurt my healthy heart.

Happy new year to all!!!

Over You

2008-08-08T15:50:00.003+08:00

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Start Of Something New

2006-06-06T15:56:00.001+08:00

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart yeah!!
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

Now who'd of ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my side
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it for real

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

I never knew that it could happen
Till it happened to me
I didn't know it before
But now it's easy to see

It's a start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart

That it's the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
Start of something new